Yesterday was my due date. sixteen years ago. I didn't realized until late last night that was the reason I was out of sorts all day. in August of 1993 I had a miscarriage. I was between 8 - 10 weeks along. No good reason. Just one of those things that happens. I didn't understand it. I was depressed for months. (however, I didn't realized that at the time) I went for an ultrasound and they couldn't find the heartbeat. A few tests and a week later and the doctor told me that there would be no baby.
Three months later we were pregnant again. Due date: August 6. No baby then either.
But it's okay. I've come to terms with it. and now I have Lyric and Jazz. With as much as they make me crazy, I know that had either of their brothers (mom's intuition says they were both boys) lived, I wouldn't have my two beautiful girls. And I love my girls.